wedding season part 3

this past weekend, a long-time friend of mine married her best friend. it was scorching hot, but amazingly beautiful! here are just a few pics since my battery was going dead & didn't make it throughout the day.

here are the bridesmaids with the beautiful bride at the rehearsal. most everyone was also friends throughout college, so it was so great to hang out with everyone and celebrate two amazing people.

we had to work pretty hard to stay cool in the 105 degree weather. i can't remember any single moment when we all weren't sweating or fanning. needless to say, there was tons of hairspray, makeup, oil blotting sheets and deodorant on hand. :)

I just had to post this picture of me and the cutest little girl EVER! meet molly, who might as well be a cabbage patch twin. she is always so happy & sweet, you can't help but love her. this is the bf's best friend's little girl. i'm just hoping my kids one day turn out as cute as she is! :)

i miss auburn

i miss auburn. i miss everything about it. the people, the town, the school, the pride, even the classes. but what i miss most today is the feeling that i could literally do anything i wanted to.

we're always told when we're younger that we can be anything we want to be, do anything we want to do, go anywhere we want to go. then we grow up and realize those doing some of those things cost money and time that we don't always have.

right before i graduated, i had my heart set on moving to boston. why? i don't know really. it just sounded fun and was completely different than anything i'd ever done. then i realized how much money it would cost to 1.) move up there and 2.) pay for living expenses until i found a job. on top of that, as a new pr grad, you don't expect to make a lot of money for a while, and after my parents paid for the best 4 years of my life (so far), i didn't want to ask for more.

so, i moved home with the plan of working for a while & building up my savings account so i could fund my own move to a big city. that lasted all of about 4 months. after that, i couldn't deal with living with my parents again after being on my own for 4 years. something about the 'rules' (which were, for the record, not unreasonable at all) just drove me crazy. i moved out & remembered how much i loved to spend money & shop. so much for the savings account.

...anyway... long story short... today, i'm still in my hometown and very much feeling like my options are extremely limited. i know that's not true and that somewhere deep down inside there's still a part of me that can do anything i want to, but today i'm feeling stuck.

today i'm feeling like i will probably live paycheck to paycheck for the rest of my life. i'm feeling like i may never find a my 'dream job' (even though i don't know what that is yet) and i may always feel limited in my possibilities.

all of this is not to discredit the wonderful people in my life who bring me more happiness than they know. i have a very loving family, an outstanding boyfriend that i couldn't live without and amazing friends that keep me sane and laughing every single day.

i'm just in a funk.
maybe i'll have another diet dr. pepper. :) hehe.

addiction

Just call me Jessie from Saved by the Bell and imagine me screaming, “No time! There’s NEVER any time!” … right before I break down and admit my addiction to caffeine.


Unlike Jessie, however, my addiction isn’t to caffeine pills so I can study and sing at night, but rather an addiction to Diet Dr. Pepper and my ability to function throughout the day.

I spent the past two days not having ANY caffeine. I should be proud, right? Since it seemed I was on my way to a new, healthier habit? Wrong. I felt AWFUL. Bad mood, headache, sleepiness, laziness, lack of motivation… you name it, I was feeling it.

That’s when I decided to screw being healthy for just this one thing. I can convince myself that I need to eat better, exercise more, take better care of myself, blah, blah, blah, but I refuse to give up my Diet Dr. Pepper. Granted, I only allow myself one drink per day (two if I got out to eat- I’m usually afraid of drinking restaurant water), so I don’t know why one drink can make such a difference.

This morning I’m back to drinking my daily Diet DP and feeling great. No headache, no sleepiness & I might even have a little tiny ounce of motivation to actually get some work done. Bring on the caffeine, because there are no plans to kick the habit in the near future.

sex & the city

i'm going to see Sex & the City 2 tonight! whoo-hoo! i can't wait! i even watched the 1st s&tc movie last night to get ready for it. i forgot how much i loved it and how much i missed it.

what surprsied me even more was how it made me miss my girl friends.... and vacations.... and shopping... and having my hair done. i'm feeling a girls' weekend coming on!

bachelorette weekend

congratulations to my friends A & B on their upcoming wedding in 2 weeks!!

last weekend was the bachelorette party at the beach. it was the first time this year i actually got to lay out on the beach and the weather was fabulous. friday night was full of the annual bachelorette party gear and parties. i spent way more money than i intended but don't think i have laughed that hard in a LONG time.

official bachelorette party gear...

 

I mean, what kind of party is it without the flashing lights, crowns & buttons? Thankfully, despite the bachelorette status there was no... um... adult-themed paraphernalia.

There was a little drama concerning an issue with a guy trying to steal the sacred bachelorette crown, but I think 5 crazy girls yelling in his face made him give up the fight. haha.

Five crazy girls as mentioned above:

dear donora...

I figured since it's been a good two months since I've written a letter to you, so I guess it's time I update you on the happenings here in peanut land.

It's been a stressful day, but slowly improving.

The BF wrecked his truck this morning. Or rather, someone wrecked it for him. Here's how my conversation went at 5:00 a.m. today.

BF: I need you to come get me. I've been in a wreck.
ME: Ok, you're on your way over? I'll see you in a minute.
BF: No, I need you to pick me up. I've been in a wreck.
ME: You saw a wreck? Oh no, was anyone hurt? Are you in front of my house?
BF: NO!!!! Get out of bed and come get me. I, ME, MYSELF, have been in a wreck!

...and so the panic attack ensues. The other guy ran a red light and t-boned his new-but-slightly-used truck that he's had for a grand total of 2 weeks. He was fine, but a little shaken. More mad than anything else. But can you guess what his biggest concern was for the day???

"How am i going to haul the boat to the beach today?"

Not, thank goodness I'm alive. Not, oh no what am I going to do without a truck for a while. But how am I going to take the boat to the beach to fish. Such a boy!

So, I've been up and going since 5:00 a.m. (which I know for a lot of people is normal), but now I'm feeling a little loopy. I've had the swagger wagon song stuck in my head all day. Really. I can't stop singing it.

Weekend-itis

Dear Donora...

Just an update on my life. Nothing too exciting, so don't get your hopes up.

1. We don't know if 'she' is pregnant or not. (For anyone who might stumble across this, no, 'she' is not me. And, no, I won't tell you who 'she' is.) She went to the dr. this week, took another test -don't know why- and it came back negative. So, 'she' is asking 'him' for more money to go to the doctor again. However, 'he' isn't going with 'her' but rather just forking over money. Big mistake. 'He' is such an idiot sometimes.

2. I got asked to help with another wedding. Whoo-hoo! This time I'll be helping with the floral and design part of it. I've never done that before, so I'm really excited about it. One step closer to being a fabulous wedding planner!

3. I think I'm forgetting how to do marketing. I was asked to help on a city event, (I think I mentioned this to you once before) and as of right now, I'm kind of in charge of all the marketing efforts. You remember that feeling once we graduated of "Oh crap! I have no idea what I'm doing!" Well, I have that feeling again.

4. I really don't want to work today. It's beautiful outside, my boss is in a bad mood & it's been an incredibly long week. Since Ben got a promotion, can you beg him to pay my bills so I can quit my job? :) Me and Matthew are too poor to do it on our own.

5. I'm ready for the BEACH!!!

Have a fabulous weekend! Love you and miss you!

p.s. I might have to revert back to emails. I can't be quite as open and honest here on the worldwide web as I can in a private email where only you and email hackers can see.